XX. Judgement

a comment on the process of pathworking: to note all phenomena matching the description of the path.

The final meaning of any kabbalistic path is neither intelligible nor sensible.  As all have their root in AIN SOPH, infinity, which is not comprehensible, except as a mathematical construct whose existence in practical (Physical) sense is often deliberately overlooked.

Practical infinity seems to be lurking everywhere, just barely outside of consciousness, and yet any attempt to bring it to conscious awareness ends up in a tangled mess (daath)... which in itself can go to infinity.  It is not the pure infinite realm of white light and endless possibilities that we like to fantasize about.

Perpetual Intelligence is the title given to the path of ש, which implies a constant renewal and rebirthing 

Memories which spontaneously arise triggered by... ? symbolized by the trumpet of the Angel.

All cards with river here 

Ends up on ש

This is the current moment.  The here and now.  All preceding events led to here and now to awakening. 

The water in which the coffins are swimming originate with the Priestess and continued on to Temperance, the Moon, and finally to Judgement...

The groups of 3 and the letters with which they are associated and the sum total of the groups and of the whole:

גדה = 12

חנס = 118

צקש = 490

total = 620

from notes written on Feb 23, 2018:

...I see it [the Judgement card] every moment my phone locks or when I open my wallet.  This is my [current] path and the cards that led mehere are there... I started a blog on them.  The Priestess is the source of the water of life.  Perhaps its blood, but do we know for sure... she's lunar therefore bloody... but her blood is the essence of the menstruum  Her clothes are the waters and she's [...] what is she doing? .... she makes [water] as her clothes touch the floor and then there's no difference between her gown and the water.  Her scroll is the T.O.R.A. and its the law transmitted into the water.

She's fertile - the fruit behind her - is it real or a veil? whats behind it? its an ocean! oh my i just saw it a vast ocean behind the veil i did not see it before now i see it.

the ocean is infinite and it flows right out... the veil represents the fertility which the ocean brings.

the pillars are black and white representing all that is dual and she's between them. she consoles, but that's just the feeling one gets looking at her. But shes beyond that.  She has a cross on her breast.  Who else has a cross?  Judgement.   In the Rider-Waite deck only the High Priestess and Judgement have a cross.

Down the river is the Empress.  She's passion and the higher form of "love" as it occurs between khohma and Binah.   Where the high priestess is passive the Empress is active.  She's the storm,  the eye which the High Priestess represents.  

The river continues unto the Emperor.  There the river is more narrow and the flow is less active.  Even though the empreror represents the fire of Sulphur, the pure thought and authority the river, the life blood is a bit more narrow and restricted with him.

The next stop is the Charioteer who is working for the Emperor and conquers city after city.  His path connecting Binah and Geburah has a more direct access to the waters of life and thus the river is wider.

The next encounter with the river is the water itself represented by the hanged man who represents the element of water and also surrender to life.  

the hanged man is followed by Death, renewal and regeneration with the help of the river of life.

The river then pools at the path of ס (Temperance) as Archangel Raphael tempers the waters...

as a part of the same pool the Star infuses the waters as well as the earth with more life

following the river we come to the Moon and the subhuman sub beastly aspects of humanity... the innermost survival instinct awakens and throws open the restriction of sin.  We have arrived.  We are reborn.  We heard the call of Gabriel's trumpet and we rejoice.  One side of us gives the utmost thanks (male on the left) with the hands gesturing an X. the other side reaches for the gifts of salvation with the hands gesturing something like an L. (female on the right).  The product of the two, the child, makes a sign of reconciliation, V.  reading from right to left it spells LVX - the Light of the Cross.

June 23, 2021

The second time traversing the path was that of joy.  The realization was Realization.  The dead aspects of the self came to life - that which I thought I lost or forgotten began to return.  A sense of return to the work, to my life's path...

every act, every new bit of knowledge felt like an opening of a box, a container, a coffin which contained an idea I had forgotten... including this work.

mostly during daily meditations, a flood of memories

it helped elucidate the idea from The World - that all things are a reflection of a "higher" thing - as above so below - and then the process of digging deeper into things - anything - from hardware components of dell poweredge servers to current and ancient history - each dig into the origin and source is an opening of a coffin.